I believe God has given me a holy ambition. A holy ambition is something you really want to do that God wants you to do. Something you want to do so much that doing it keeps you from doing other things you really like to do. Something you really, really want to do for the glory of God. Something that controls you. It helps you decide no to do this, go here, or join that yet. It gives you eternal focus and passion to your life. It is molded by a personal encounter with the living Christ. It is shaped and informed by the written word of God and fits into his overall plan. Finally, it meets a need in the world that is displayed as a form of love and not about self-exaltation. God gave me this last night and has been building it in my heart since the day He saved me. He gave me a deep, yearning desire to create provocative, relevant art for His glory. A desire to spread His love letter to the darkest places in His world. A desire to walk and disciple other artists to be a part of God's work.
Paul talks about God's holy ambition in Ephesians 3. "By God’s grace and mighty power, I have been given the privilege of serving him by spreading this Good News. Though I am the least deserving of all God’s people, he graciously gave me the privilege of telling the Gentiles about the endless treasures available to them in Christ. I was chosen to explain to everyone this mysterious plan that God, the Creator of all things, had kept secret from the beginning. God’s purpose in all this was to use the church to display his wisdom in its rich variety to all the unseen rulers and authorities in the heavenly places. This was his eternal plan, which he carried out through Christ Jesus our Lord." (Eph. 3:7-11) Paul knew he was called by God according to His grace and power to preach to the Gentiles about Jesus. God's purpose of doing this is to display His wisdom to all the unseen rulers and authorities in the heavenly places. This is eternal plan carried out through Christ Jesus. This passage has placed its roots in my heart. God gave Paul a holy ambition for the glory of God to reveal His mysterious plan of reconciling mankind back to Himself. This is what God gave me yesterday....a holy calling that fit into His overall plan. He put my eyes up on a heavenly prize that I have never seen. It made my resignation from my job all the more sweet.
At the beginning of the month, I planned to put in my resignation to prepare for my big move to Chicago in August. I believe this time of preparation is bigger than Chicago. (Proverbs 16:9) Today I am letting go of a life I have known since 2009 for His glory. I am leaving because I believe God is calling me to a holy ambition that is a part of His overall plan. I won't know until years from now if this was truly the Lord's call, but I will earnestly pray for God's guidance and protection.
"It is easier to serve or work for God without a vision and without a call, because then you are not bothered by what he requires. Common sense, covered with a layer of Christian emotion, becomes your guide. You may be more prosperous and successful from the world's perspective, and will have more leisure time, if you never acknowledge the call of God. But once you receive a commission from Jesus Christ, the memory of what God asks of you will always be there to prod you on to do His will. You will no longer be able to work for Him on the basis of common sense." - Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest