Today is Friday and it has been a tiring week. Change is never easy. Sometimes it is just painful. This week DC decided that it wanted to be autumn all of the sudden. Literally it was summer Monday and by Wednesday fall was here! lol So my sinuses have went haywire. Most of all, I have experienced a change in my poetry. I have no idea what God wants me to do with it. I am trying to trust Him, but it is hard. I had ideas for it, but I really don't anymore. I've been here before....I know God makes beautiful things out of nothing. Now, I am at a point of being nothing as an artist. Not in a way of demeaning myself or self-hate. The focus really isn't on myself at all. It has nothing to do with me, but everything to do with Him. This is the point I needed to get to with God. I needed to get here because I struggle with the notion that everything is mines because I planned it and worked hard for it. I hold on so tight and "act" like it is surrendered to God, but it really isn't. I make a list or plan throw some scriptures on top and call it God. Today, I know that I was lying to myself.
Today, September 16, 2015 I give You poetry. Not as something of my own. I give you poetry as an innocent child who gives her Father a gift she brought with his money. I lay it at Your feet and show me what You want me to do with it.
Psalm 25:4-5 "Make me to know your ways, O Lord; teach me your paths. Lead me in your truth and teach me, for you are the God of my salvation; for you I wait all the day long."