Today was a rough morning. I had some difficult conversations about the changes that I wanted to make in regards to my art. I needed to scale back on some things and take it day by day. I have always been an ambitious person so understanding that everything belongs to the Lord is something I have to remind myself of constantly. Trusting God that He will use my poetry as He sees fit is hard for me. I like to know where I am going, why I am going there, and how we plan to get our ideas accomplished. With God, it is quite different. He says go and I will show you. Trust me.
My morning prayer is:
Abba, I have been holding onto this poetry as if it is a gift of my own. I have wanted to do it my way with my desires...Today I don't want to do that anymore. You tell us in Your word that all gifts come from You. Each gift is to be used to serve one another and be good stewards of Your varied grace. Abba, I have not done that at all. I have been selfish and seen my gift as my own for my own glory. God, please forgive me of my sins and cleanse me of all unrighteousness. I ask that you bring brothers and sisters in my life to hold me accountable as a remembrance this gift is Yours. Lord, help me have balance to not neglect the gift out of fear, but to use the gift with love and a sound mind. Abba, I pray this for You to be glorified for all the glory belongs to You. Amen
1 Peter 4:10 - 11 "As each has received a gift, use it to serve one another, as good stewards of God's varied grace: whoever speaks, as one who speaks oracles of God; whoever serves, as one who serves by the strength that God supplies - in order that in everything God may be glorified through Jesus Christ. To him belong glory and dominion forever and ever. Amen. "
Romans 12:6-8 "Have gifts that differ according to the grace given to us, let us use them: if prophecy, in proportion to our faith; if service, in our serving; the one who teaches, in his teaching; the one who exhorts, in his exhortation the one who contributes, in generosity; the one who leads, with zeal; the one who does acts of mercy, with cheerfulness."