I've been in Chicago since Friday figuring out if this is where God wants me to be. I can't lie I was scared and kind of still am, but God really reminded me of His goodness. I was afraid of being back home. To be honest, it's because DC is so comfortable. I have a good job, I have great friends, I'm serving, discipline a few women, learning a lot from my local church, live in a quaint little neighborhood...writing this makes me think about how I use to place my hope in stuff like this. I wasn't saved, but just replace some of these things with my boyfriend, old job, beauty, my connects, etc. It's no different. Serving, discipling, and learning are no different. It makes me question do I really trust the One who holds the world in hands and were nailed to a cross for you and I? Or do I trust in my plans, my savings account, or whatever else for that matter? To be honest, my flesh is wrestling. I'm fighting to follow God on this one because I just don't think there is anything for me here. (Writing in Chicago) I'm going to trust Him not because of my plans, but because who He says He is.
Prayer: Lord, forgive me. Forgive me for placing my hope in something else other than You. It's so easy to do God. It's so many things promising me that they will keep me. Promising me they won't fail. But God I know in my mind that they will. I know according to Your word bless is the man who trust in the Lord for he is like a tree planted by water with roots by the stream. This man has no reason to fear when troubles come or the season of drought. Why? Because it is the water that is his nourishment, what sustains him, and keeps him bearing good fruit. Lord, I know this is my mind, but allow my heart to catch up with this truth. I want me hope to be in You and You alone. I love You. In Your beautiful name I pray. Amen.